Twisted Reflection

And she fires

2006-03-01T10:13:00.000-08:00

Midnight Cyanide got a workout this morning
everything is fine, but I do need to pull the chain and clean it then soak it really well
Maybe I'll be blessed with a mild spring entry

Pack the tent and the tail bags and make a run up into one of the northern canyons.

And I need to quit forgetting to pick up new rechargeable batteries for the camera

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The Chemical Relationship Recipe

2006-02-22T10:46:00.000-08:00

high modulus polyethylene liner in tub
object goes in tub
Sodium Hydroxide
sluice orifices
soak warm
spray cold
rinse warm
pump liquid out
store liquid in it's own container
Chlorine
soak hot
rinse cold
pump liquid out
store liquid in it's own container
*
Sulfuric Acid
soak controlled
bring temperature up using submersible heating element until reaction is excited slightly only
add Hydrochloric Acid
soak and watch carefully for unwanted reaction
adjust temperature using ice directly and turning adjusting element
agitate every 15 minuets
turn element off
ice bath
spray clean
pump liquid out
store liquid in it's own container
repeat from * if needed
PH neutralize all containers contents
discard liquid and flush well the drain
flush containers with 10% bleach solution
rinse then dry
refill with waist oils and vehicle fuel
remove objects bones from tub
scrub neutralize and flush tub liner
let liner dry then remove and roll into tight wound tube and tape
cut tube into 6 inch lengths
dry bones in oven for 1 hour at 500 deg F then 2 at 350 turn down if smoking
remove and allow to cool enough to handle
place in 20% white gas 30% diesel 50% karaseen while still warm
soak for 8 hours at room temperature in closed container
remove and wrap in a waxed burlap bundle
bundle tightly in steel mesh
secure using stainless steal wire
55 gallon drum prepared properly for assisted aspiration
fill 1/4 full of charcoal
lay bundle on top then add another equal amount of charcoal
pour unused 20% 30% 50% mix into cold coals
cap barrel with lid and short exhaust hood
drop match into "pilot and check" hole
let burn for 10 minuets unassisted
turn on blower ( 200 CFM minimum into bottom forced air inlet )
internal temperature should approach 12-1500 deg F
feed one length of rolled liner threw pilot/check hole every ten minuets until gone
along with crushed whiskey bottles from the last 48 hours
use steel rod to check charcoal level every half hour threw check/pilot hole
once coals have dropped to less than half depth turn blower off
let burn unassisted for half an hour
remove barrel cover and exhaust
remove top layer of coals into metal container
remove bundle with tongs gently and set on metal plate to cool
use removed coals in BBQgrill and throw a couple steaks
have a beer and take a break
cut wire on bundle once cool and loosen contents
dump contents into a thick canvas doufle bag that is waxed on the outside
use a 3 to 5 pound sledge hammer to mill the contents while in the bag
scatter on pre-designated area of ground
along with leftover charcoal ash,green sand,potash,bagged compost, blood meal, a bag or two of cow manure and till under well then water well
dump a container or two of night crawlers on top
burn bag
two days later plant your favorite variety of wild flowers
dial up that red head you met last weekend and go out for dinner
repeat as necessary

† soak times will vary depending on mass of object and other conditions
† always ware appropriate personal protection
† appropriate air extraction and scrubbing may be needed
† drinking heavily while standing next to a tub full of hot acid may be dangerous to your health
† industrial lab certification suggested in case of OSHA inspection

Authors note:
This is a fictional piece of work
For reading entertainment only
Some details and knowledge were left out intentionally
Thus this scenario is not fully operable
I am not responsible for stupid people

Blame the rest on my spell checker

Regards
Savage
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Here is a new concept

2006-02-17T12:35:00.000-08:00

Legalize Freedom

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Shift Gears

2006-02-16T12:22:00.000-08:00

Mental panoramic of a .. once upon
Held illusion of a .. should have been
Faded hologram of that .. oasis mirage

It's vexing how we often want to hold on to everything that we never had yet throw away once in hand.

Still waiting for the .. what's to come
To distracted by the .. what almost was
Knowing full well what I .. should have done

You see, our past is existing proof that every decision we make changes our whole future path and event. What many never learn to do is reflect, and then move on rather than repeating or standing still. Full aware that the next step .. every step effects what ground we have before us after that.

Even when presented with a mirror image of what didn't come, we must still move on... knowing what never was.
Sometimes... we have to give up a dream... to live out the next. Or remain there in the remnants forever.

" and it was said that the legacy was short lived, that his destiny had found it's ends as all surveyed faded away. The mossy castle walls crumbled into dust and rubble leaving only the shields and swords of the gate guards half buried and a single thrown open to the elements. His place to set and ponder eternity, staring out into nothing whilst the dust settled and collected within the aging creases of his face.

A traveler once claimed that if one approached him and looked into the gaze what could be seen a view of what once was in the emotionless stare and described it as the "land of the endless midnight star". A place just at the edge of reality illuminated without an apparent source yet cold and dark. And claimed to see it recurring within his own dreams and nightmares, another world so real yet non existent . "

excerpt from a chapter in Semel Erro

Regards
Savage
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Change

2006-02-15T10:49:00.000-08:00

Progress is impossible without change; and those who cannot change their minds, cannot change anything.’
— George Bernard Shaw

Change is not merely necessary to life—it is life.’
— Alvin Toffler

The altar cloth of one aeon is the doormat of the next.’
— Mark Twain

'Weep not that the world changes—did it keep
A stable, changeless state, it were cause indeed to weep.’
— William Bryant

‘In order to learn one must change one’s mind.’
— Orson Scott Card

'To improve is to change. To be perfect is to change often.’
— Winston Churchill

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Imrove perfection ??

2006-02-14T17:52:00.000-08:00

Humm.. my horoscope for tomorrow is telling me to "improve your look".

I guess it time to take my monthly swim in the pond and then wash cloths, underwear are getting a tad stiff anyhow.. maybe I should finally get around to sewing the holes up in my socks too. Spring won't be long from now, maybe I should shave off the face insulation, trim my toe nails before they grow threw my boot tips. Carve a new wooden tooth... lesse.. what else

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Valentine Grinch

2006-02-14T12:17:00.000-08:00

How come it is OK to make Fat bastard, reindeer stew, grinchy jokes about Christmas but not ok to do it with any other holiday ? Especially valentines.

I mean, come on

When I look at your wife and then you and say "man, cupid sure has realy bad aim.. huh".. it was just a joke!!... gueeez, chill out.
I do understand why you bought that bottle of wine with the chocolates though... HA!!!

a chuckle for the day

Daddy's little girl

Little Melissa comes home from first grade and tells her father
that they learned about the history of Valentine's Day. "Since
Valentine's Day is for a Christian saint and we're Jewish," she
asks, "will God get mad at me for giving someone a valentine?
Melissa's father thinks a bit, then says "No, I don't think God
would get mad. Who do you want to give a valentine to?"

"Osama Bin Laden," she says

"Why Osama Bin Laden," her father asks in shock
"Well," she says, "I thought that if a little American Jewish
girl could have enough love to give Osama a valentine, he might
start to think that maybe we're not all bad, and maybe start loving people
a little bit.

And if other kids saw what I did and sent valentines to Osama,
he'd love everyone a lot. And then! he'd start going all over the
place to tell everyone how much he loved them and how he didn't hate
anyone anymore."

Her father's heart swells and he looks at his daughter with
newfound pride.

"Melissa, that's the most wonderful thing I've ever heard."

"I know," Melissa says, "and once that gets him out in the open,
the Marines could blow the crap out of him."

ok..so... who's taking me out for McDonalds and a six pack and then meaningless sex in the back seat tonight ?
I'll even bring the breath mints and condoms.

Regards
Savage
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Into the light

2006-02-12T02:05:00.000-08:00

The One Great Mystery

What happens after we die
The question has been wondered about and theorized about possibly since the beginning of cognitive time.

Reincarnation, move on to another level or plane, go to a heaven or hell, reborn/transported to the mother planet, end up a ghost or spirit... nothing at all.
or?

I figured it out tonight. You can thank me by the way, you can quit wondering now. Being a man of scientific thought it comes to me that the one tangible report we do have is from people who have been dead for a short time then brought back to life on a hospital table. Quite a few seem to recall seeing a light, walking into a light, being drawn into the light, floating into a light, being guided into the light.

Well, as I sit here observing my own surroundings and activity in it... it came to me.

We die then become a moth, we just don't realize that while trying to 'go into the light'... were actually bouncing off a litebulb in someones house or at there back porch burning the fuck out of ourselves and never having a clue......yea... into the light.

I'm am now so relieved that very few people use candles as lighting now.
I wonder how many little winged souls I've snuffed out when out camping ...yanno.. that fire.

Now also can you imagine
"Hey Ray... Betty just called and told me that John was shot tonight while standing in line at the 7-11 by some drugged out armed robber"

Oh..well hell Frank... kick on the bug zapper.. lets finish that poor bastard off !!

into the light...into the light

Regards
Savage
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Chat Mission Distraction

2006-02-11T23:19:00.000-08:00

If anyone was in bloggerchat around early evening PST or mid evening EST and some goofball popped into the chat as an anon or guest user but didn't say anything ( twice within a few minuets, if more than that is was someone else ) that was more than likely me.

I was just kicking back, knowing I have things to do but not real interested in being productive at that moment. Decided, what the hell.. lets go check out something new. Well, I normally do IRC via Trillian but my Trillian install on the lappy is having issues right now ( it didn't don on me till later that I didn't have the info to get on channel anyhow..LOL .. I had peeked in from work one afternoon and noticed it was an irc setup ) so I pop over using regular web browser. Java applet decides to not load up correctly for me, this isn't the chats problem BTW it's just this/my system and how I have it set up. It does connect but with a few gremlins and the applet flashes out on me after entering. I'm blind basically.

Ok, fine I think... I haven't used the mIRC client in like... ages, but am familiar with it so I go snag the latest download, install, log into the b.com server and the rather than going directly to the intended destination chat channel I decide to take a look at the channels list. I haven't been on that server in ages either so I was curious to see what the channel lineup was like, this was just suppose to be a quick look then on my way kind of thing. Well, I ended up popping into #dominateradio to see what thats about. I remember that website and station starting up years ago so recognised the tittle . Well, things leed to another and I'm now listening to the radio station via internet ( I'm a sucker for music ) as well as chatting a bit. The DJ at the time, "dj moon" is in there of course and knows the regs as well as being a greeter for the new.

A short bit after , I get to hear my handle mentioned live over the air by one of the sexiest voices I have heard in a long time. Ok, so now I'm parked , entertained and never made it back to my mission of hitting the bloggchat. But still ended up doing something new.
Tadaaa.... chat mission distraction, but the something 'new' was still accomplished.

Regards
Savage
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The Quiet Things

2006-02-10T14:47:00.000-08:00

passive

no, I'm just not interested most of the time unless it has some baring on my life directly. That would not be most things.

unresisting

no, I just don't let people work me into resisting
I'm no marionette .. so I do neither unless I initiate it myself

non-engagement

yes, correct.. triviality is boorish and beneath me. I also fallow the old thought of I expect others to stay out of mine so I do the same.

quiesce

yes actually, that is right also .. I am a watcher, I study and the more something has my attention, the quieter I get, the more attune I become to an object

I also know my nature, I am no group pedagogue or not a very likely one anyhow
but one on one I can hand someone pieces of this universe they would never have touched in 20 life times.

welcome to the vacuum

A wolf makes no noise before he kills
to bark at your prey would be folly

A knife has no sound, it is what it slices threw that makes the noise .. be it air, parchment or rind ( or what it's covering )

"That that lies within the shadows will never have need for company....but will hold many temptations to beckon one to it" ~ Richard Blackwater

"It is within the nature of the predator to be swift, in stealth, to be mercifully......and to have no remorse...this can come from only divine intelligence" ~ Richard Blackwater

"Let us dare do violence to this unintelligible Nature, the better to master the art of enjoying her." ~ Marquis de Sade

Regards
Savage
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Look what I found

2006-02-09T15:03:00.000-08:00

Wandering around .. out here in the wild.
Cold, shivering, starving, ratty hair, covered in mud and lost.
Rags wrapped around feat for shoes and I'm pretty sure I could detect the smell of cheap wine.

Folks, this is what happens when your parents tie a pork chop around your neck and then send you out to play with the dogs as a child. ... click to see

Oh my..wait.. wrong link..I could have sworn that was for...errrmm.. .. oh, well hell ... sorry misfire !! .."ehem".. bwaha .. well, it looks like we do have another stray alt blogger though.
Welcome to the party hun.

Sans pork chop that is.

Regards
Savage
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Just call me yup-hippie

2006-02-09T00:11:00.000-08:00

Oh... your kidding me !!

Your Summer Ride is a Beetle Convertible

Fun, funky, and a little bit euro. You love your summers to be full of style and sun!

What's Your Summer Ride?

Ok... this may fit me..... I think ??

Your Personality Profile

You are funky, outdoorsy, and down to earth.While you may not be a total hippie... You're definitely one of the most free spirited people around.

You are very impulsive - every day is a new adventure. However, you do put some thought behind all your actions. Still, you do tend to shock and offend people from time to time!

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Kinky Mini !!

2006-02-06T12:55:00.000-08:00

This is great <<.. Check it out

Stole that from RonAlan over at ault .. you will see the woman in the "Dominate Winter" add ..ok.. when "click here" shows up in the lower left hand corner of that add banner. .click it....then let it play out/the short vid clip .. then let the next part load...then play with ..find the marks to click on the car.

ha!!

what the hell.. were all yuppies now

Regards
Savage
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Just This

2006-02-05T22:42:00.000-08:00

Found at http://status.blogger.com/
Hit refesh if all you get is a white page with "ok" on it .. details of the last few days are there as well

quote
Blogger Status

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Just a quick reminder that we will be going ahead with a planned network maintenance on Monday the 6th from 7–8PM PST. Blogger and Blog*Spot blogs will be unavailable during that time.

This maintenance won’t fix everything, but it will make things better. I promise. Posted by Pete at 21:18 PST
end quote

I think it is friggin' cool that we get to see "why" and "what" for... as compared to other places... makes it... OK... in a way....chitola happens...with an explaination

and in lue of that... I think I figured out why the gopher post flaked out on me...but it's a secret..bwah-ha!! ( unrelated BTW )

Regards
Savage
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Blogspot having issues

2006-02-04T19:29:00.000-08:00

HA!!....so it wasn't me after all
My tech-geek ego is now restored ( I really didn't think it was me anyhow... really )

No information....but a few people sitting around trying to figure out what's up click here for a thread on that at bloggerforum.

I didn't see any mention of the exact problem but after trying to view blogs several different running threw proxy servers and IP backdoors thinking it was my IP blocking the sites ( this happens sometimes during server glitches ... or tech foobars ) I decided to run a ping and trcrt and found that the IP address that is used by all blogger subdomains was ok but the subdomains were not resolving. ( yourblog.blogspot.com ...subdomain . ..rather than blogspot.com/thisafter .. base domain first)

Thus status.blogger.com couldn't even be checked. Subdomain again rather than a strait blogger.com/status URL ... hummm.. me thinks this was an oversight. I've had this problem on with my domain hosts as well in the past thus avoid using subdomains in some critical instances.

It looks like whatever it was is fixed now though

Updated Firefox today just to find out that the spellchecker I use with it now doesn't work with the new version...bastiges. And blogspot doesn't work well with opera.. my other browser of choice when posting. So I am stuck using the blogger speelz checks. Which so does not understand my verbal jazz... It's not even funny.

So... how many of you were cussing your monitors out today *grinz*

Aye... and.. the ride didn't happen today... freaking weather blew in way early... rain..sleet and 50mph+ winds... Savage said.. go for a ride?..screw that
maybe tomorrow.

Regards
Savage
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Red line Jury

2006-02-04T14:20:00.000-08:00

Prior post broken... how the hell do you break a post ?

Savage did it.. nevermind

will fix it later.. it will be back

Today looks like a decent day...suppose to be rainy in the evening (( I'll still be burning more stuff though tomorrow night.... it's got to go )) ..but is suppose to hit 46 deg F ... daytime roads are suppose to be dry in the valley.

I think this kid's gunna go tap dance on a red line... blur that yellow line... shoot for the flat line... draw the blood line...
for a brief time

go warm the tires up..before I lite the fires up... and entertain the jury

I hope everyone enjoys there weekend

Regards
Savage
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Gopher it... ..gopher it !!

2006-02-02T12:27:00.000-08:00

Use the controls in the grey player box to play the audio ... may not work in the latest version of Firefox 1.5.0.1

Any old Caddyshack fans out there?

Links

This is what savage does on coffee breaks, tries out new web page goodies. Todays is testing a single play and single track flash MP3 player for another project I'm on.
Yea.. if you don't hear anything within a few second.. there IS something wrong with your speakers !!!
Or.. maybe there not on ? (Strike that, player is no longer auto on load, use the controls to start the audio clip now)

What you need is a headset with microphone, like mine ... so we can have..
Skype sex ... yumm.. phone for nerds... eh
Come sit on my interface and play with my hard drive while I ping your ports and format your floppies my pretty little pentium. * licks eyebrows *

"ehem"... anyhow
You might be wondering why I don't just use a standard embedded media player like you see most places. Well, that would be so people don't have to have the quicktime or realmedia "plugins" .. or what have you, in order to listen. Basically any old browser will work with nothing extra needed. Flash is cool that way.
I don't like this one though, the MP3 streamer/player, ( player controls at bottom of post ) because it doesn't work with or have the option of autoplay=false. I can't take apart the source fl/swf file and adding the directive to the embed line doesn't do anything ( didn't think it would actually ).
I'll find something that has to be started rather than stopped and replace this one... or, quit being lazy and make my own. maybe flash client with php back.(strike as noted above)

( something.. anything.. gawd it's fucking killing me.. I have to hear it all over again every time I refresh the page...and that fucking gopher.. what was I thinking.. the nightmares I'll have for the next week ....*twitches and closes eyes...fades*.... oh... the pretty pretty nightmares.. )

So it doesn't drive y'all nutso every time you visit....but.. for now..umm ok.. the sadist in me says it's ok to drive you a little nuts for now. It plays out on it's own and ends at about 32 second as it's only te begining of the song. ( full song now loaded, without movie trailer begining)
If you don't remember Caddyshack .. am sure you know " Kenny Loggins ".
Right?.. yea... I thought so... another 80's throwback huh.... you... not Kenny
*grinz*

In any case once I either find what I want or can modify to what I want or put something together myself...get it sorted somehow to my personal felicitousness level. Maybe I'll set up some audio clips of "me".
Maybe even sing !! .. everyone needs barking dogs and a little shattering glass in there lives.... yes?

2006-01-31T16:22:00.000-08:00

Now keep in mind I do admit that without spell check I would be in deep crapola out here, even with it I am sometimes.
But this was still kinda funny ( to me anyhow )

I'm leaving the grocery store the other night, the change booth attendant and the checker who checked me had been trying to figure out a word in a crossword puzzle. In fact I had to wait for 3 minuets before she realized someone was standing there waiting on her.
She apologies and explains that they are stuck on this word and it's just driving them nuts for half an hour and that she didn't even see me there.
She rings me up..I pay..then ask.. so..what letters ?

She tells me that it's just 5 letters and that they have most of the other words figured out already

the five letters were

edncu

I solved the word for them... I got very chin down stares of embarrassment when the irony hit them.. I was nice and just smiled and acted like I didn't even notice the humor

do you know the word ?

Regards
Savage
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2006-01-27T14:26:00.000-08:00

I was looking to see if Midori was going to be putting on any workshops or classes this spring in my area.
(( my area...heh... In my instance the nearest town big enough for such a thing is just under 200 miles away ... nothing like living in friggin' BFE ))
She has put on a weekend workshop and show in a city north of me for two springs now so I was looking for any dates this year. Would make for a good bike trip pluss get some kinkster air in my lungs in the live. A small-ish event would be just right to kick off the summer. Although I'm thinking about making it to Thunder In the Mountains, Denver ...this year..... if not it "may" be Folsom Street Fair, SF, later in the year. I have someone who owes me a drink , seeing as she missed me ( or avoided me *taps toe* ) the last time I was there... people...yanno ?
It's all balanced on finances... especially with hotel and gas prices right now.....but, good chance.

I am way overdue in any case...like.. way way overdue, it's been to long other than the occasional one on one traveler over dinner thing that I get blessed with as far as contact with other kinksters...... Starts to create a little knot in the gut after a while. I used to put more effort into "being involved" , as much as was at that time possible in my situation anyhow.. I do miss it... I kinda dropped out of the active community completely for a while after Angelique and I parted ways.. needed a little healing... I'm sure most understand that one. .. I'll cry about that in another post though. I know that is a new name to most who would be reading this.

The group that hosts events north of me isn't real big on the Internet thing and I lost my contact up there. Neither are the two groups to the east of me, although I still know one or two people involved there, they as a group (s) are rather elusive... you have to "know" someone.... which I do understand completely. My location just kinda puts a damper on things for me at times. I'll have to send a few e-mails tonight and see if someone has any idea.

( yes..I know.. north..east..yadda.. just use your imagination.. if I indicated my exact location in the open in my blog I would have to delete it then hunt you all down and kill you ..ha !! ... )

Anyhow, looking for date and place info on Midori I came across an article of hers that I thought was interesting. It also kind of relates to were my mind has been going lately.

I think it is an interesting "modern" mindset view of how it is community wise in this arena...especial now. And some good general and realistic thoughts. Without allot of buzzwords involved, just plain clean English for the most part.

Don't let the initial wording at the beginning put you off. It makes sense farther in.
I've no opinion, but can see it from my distance, this way. As compared to how it was shown to me back once upon a time.

Thought it might be interesting to a few here in any case and thought I might share/post the url before I move on and loose the web page.

the article can be found here

I'm sure most are familiar with places and people mentioned above, but for those who aren't and just so the above makes sense.. I know I used to get confused at one time " What the hell is he talking about? "

Thunder In The Mountains and Folsom Street Fair are two of the larger BDSM events in the US
Should be links in post above.

Midori is a fairly well known BDSM educator,book author and fetish diva.
Sites related to her BeautyBound and Fire Horse productions
She used to have a kick ass personal website with photos and articles but.. you can blame that being gone on the current government.

She is heavily into rope bondage...especially Shibari. Would love to attend something she is putting on...but... Her event and workshop tickets tend to sell out quickly.. ..grrr.

<<< ...rope-alolic.. or.."knoty" rather..* groans *..ok, that was my lame attempt at a funny today

Regards
Savage
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2006-01-24T11:31:00.000-08:00

Tagged by curious and mi3 ... ( how do I almost always get double teamed on these things )
I'ma little late but I've had my hands full

Four jobs I've had in my life:
1) Sheetmetal Worker
2) Geochemical Lab Tech
3) Industrial Print Technician
4) Graphics Artist
(( I decided to leave off mopping floors in jail ))

Four movies I could watch over and over:
1) I seriously had to leave
2) this section blank because
3) I won't watch a movie again
4) for a year after I have seen it
(( favorite all time movie is On Golden Pond.. however ))

Four Places I have lived
1) Reno, NV
2) Sparks, NV
3) Jackpot, NV
4) Eureka, NV
(( I , up until the last few years, have always loved this state.... but.. things do change ))

TV shows I love to watch (currently on air):
1) Geee, another one I have
2) to leave blank because
3) I don't watch enough
4) TV to even know what shows to pick
(( does the 10 o'clock news count ? ))

Four places I have been on vacation:
1) Disney
2) Lagoon
3) South Dakota ( Mount Rushmore, Deadwood/black hills etc )
4) San Fransisco / Folsom Fair
(( Along with ocasionaly pulling the blinds shut, locking the doors, turning the phone off, chilling two bottles of vino and being any place I want to in my head ))

Four websites I visit daily:
1) Web Pro News
2) Slashdot
3) Motorcycle Online ( MO )
4) Fox News
(( wow.. am I really this friggin' boring ?..LOL ))

Four of my favorite foods:
1) Lamb / Basque style
2) Any sea food
3) Bacon wrapped asparagus
4) popcorn
(( I think they should make beer a food ... there is a porkchop in every can after all ))

Four places I would rather be right now:
1) A beach in Mexico
2) Texas or New Mexico .. I haven't decided yet
3) San Fransisco
4) Coos Bay, OR
(( I'd settle for the afternoon matinay, a coke,popcorn and a hand to hold about right now ))

I'm not sure who hasn't been tagged yet as I haven't had time to make my rounds to look but I'll poke around later on this evening and pick a victim or two *G*

Regards
Savage
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2006-01-20T10:18:00.000-08:00

Altissima quaeque flumina minimo sono labi
The deepest rivers flow with the least sound.

Funny how true this is
shallow does indeed in some cases make the most noise.

Regards
Savage
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2006-01-18T19:20:00.000-08:00

Gawd I ache.

You know, that feeling you have during intermission of having a vital piece of equipment decide to go retarded on you when you needed it most. In doing so has put a dead stop to the last step of out the door production of product. You've gotten as far with prepares and redneck engineering as you can to "just" get back into operation...the band aid.

And still waiting on key parts to to hit the UPS entrance so you can go threw and redo everything over again the right way. It comes from having equiptment that has parts that none of the handful of electrical supply joints locally have even heard of let alone have on a shelf. Even the electricians scratch there head.

While one ton deadlines swing on a mere string over your head.

And your the man... everyone else's income under one working roof requires.. that you be "it" or doors will shut.
The one who knows it all, the one who will fix it... faith.. unconditional faith.

A little time to sit and think and drain. ... while waiting ... waiting... when people who's income rely that you be a god.. the look in there eyes, they see a god... the one who will save it all. They believe what you believe, they trust that all you say is the ultimate true.
It will be.

How they can get that from watching smoke and wires and testing equipment and funky little tools and half burned cigarettes and cussing and leftover food stains mixed with blood stains on grimey clothing on a mussed up madman with a nervous twitch and shitty attitude.... the mess on the floor the crap under his fingernails ... lacking a shave yet having bags under his eyes....
I will never know.

You put your own life on complete hold. You put off your real estate agent and a possible looker, you cancel appointments, reschedule personal clients, let your "other" work sit on your desk and fall behind, forget about the plumbing that needs fixed at home, let the dishes sit, wonder if the money was really there you had to spend, ask that creditors try back, shove everything else aside and turn blind to it..... and you make it..this one thing... true. The clock goes from 9pm to 1am before you know it then you get up the next morning and hit it running again....and go...and go....and go.

I've somehow always ended up in the position of being "the one" at almost every work place I have ever been in... as well as co-enhabitational settings. ... when shit hit's the fan and no one else knows how to fix it. ... yet I'm perpetually starving.

I am intelligent, I may have a few social handicaps...but I am extremely intelligent. I have a few natural gifts that sometimes I almost wish I didn't have.

In the right moment, in the right place... I end up godly
but given two hours of peace, when it all starts to ache....the body rejects pleasure, the mind wilts from the inlfamation of sensory and cogitation pounding and I somehow know that... that comes with unusual pains .
Everything at a price, even when it's hidden.

Regards
Savage
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2006-01-15T03:09:00.000-08:00

Finally added a Wacom graphics tablet to the laptop ( digital art tablet ).
Which is all I use at home anymore for a computer, the lapy. I like the option of sitting outside or taking a trip to the river for my personal computer play time. Nothing like chatting, playing, working, reading while listening to the river and watching the sun set... and miles from a phone jack or a talking human.
Well, that and everything else including several desk systems ( anyone need a used but working tower? they are just going to collect dust ) is boxed up, given away, sold or burned or about to be burned anyhow.

I have had a Wacom at the office for as long as I've been setting at that desk but always find something else to add to the home toys instead when the money is there. It's only a 6X8 ( active pad area ) but at 10" x 11" and 1/2 inch thick actual dimensions it's just about right for sliding into the laptop bag without taking up noticeable real estate.

It will be nice to NOT have to stay at that desk in the office at night if I have personal graphics projects or photos to edit that are not work related and don't require the larger tablets. Although I will have to get used to working with a smaller working area I'm finding.

If I wasn't planning on packing up and putting my show on the road once everything sells I'd really like to add a Cintiq to the tools at work. But, hey... maybe in another phase down the road.

Almost have the road office complete now in any case.

Lapy, cameras, tablet, portable solar charging system, Verizon Wireless Internet
NationalAccess prolly change to there cellular broadband eventually but I will say it works better than I had thought , HP Deskjet 450wbt Wireless Mobile Printer .... pluss all the goodies inbetween ... can we say .. fucking unplugged and on the road...ha!!... We will roll.

This town can kiss my fucking ass... once all is said and done... I'm fucking gone.
Anyone want to go photo journalize Mexico with me, I really could use an editor with my typing and spelling handicap. One with a set of tits, kinky and with a sharp attitude would be a bonus. Yes, I am shameless.
Knowing a bit of Spanish might save both of us......Life is meant to be an adventure... lived.
I'm fairly tired of listening to the stump fuckers talk, then sit down myself.....around here.

HP discontinued the Scanjet 4600 which wasn't the best scanner in the world anyhow. Cheap even. But I would have still had enough room in the computer dedicated bag to fit it... which is what counts in this case... and from what I saw after playing with one it would have been "ok" as I only need a scanner for base images to re-render anyhow. I'm friggin'' spoiled actually, I'm used to saying " if it cost under $1K and and can't scan in full tabloid and doesn't render me a perfect image of the original that even god himself couldn't paint then it's a piece of shit ".
Once you figure out that isn't going to happen in a portable suitable for bike travel you humble your view..... or do without.

If anyone knows of first hand a decent USB powered or battery operated even flat scanner please let me know. It is the only thing missing now.
Cheap is good, at work I am a god ... but outside of that, I am still a starving artist and they keep taxing the hell outa my beer and tobacco.

Regards
Savage
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curently listning to...or was
Rolling Stones › Honky Tonk Woman
Don Mclean › American Pie

and have Tom Petty > Free Falling .. coming on
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2006-01-12T19:03:00.000-08:00

My photography buddy

She's a 2002 Honda 919 Hornet. ( An Italian designed and manufactured body ..but a Honda still...who woulda ever thunk it )
She looks a little funny with the tail pack and tank bag dressing her out and messing with her curves but she is one sexy chick on the road.

I named her Midnight Cyanide after she body slammed me coming out of a corner one late evening and left me sliding along the tarmac like a cube of butter down a hot pan.
I wasn't playing nice and she let me know that she didn't like it. Took her for granted and she showed me just how much of a royal bitch she could be.

I learned to behave and respect the power after that. I made many apologies and making up. I learned finesse and control. I took many hours and time really talking to her and letting her... teach me. Balance between rider bike and pushing the edge of limits. I learned how to "handle" gently and then tame the vicious thing.

We get along as one now, be it putting along lazily on some back road looking at the sites, slicing the wind spirited on some long lonely highway, dancing threw canyon corners in perfect step and swing or making her sing like ripping silk as we shoot the pass together at insane tempo.

And... she loves to go out and take pictures with me. I swear if I let her lead the way she finds the perfect spots to shoot. Now if I could just get her to smile and wink at me and call me baby..daddy...sugar, maybe I could give up on fems all together *grinz*

I think my creativity has bogged town a bit more than I had realized since the onset of winter. I'm missing that road...all of that "out there". The air, the freedom the hunt for that one good photo...... and our dances, the most.
It's an exercise of more than just mind and body...far more.

Spring needs to come soon. We need to stretch.

Regards
Savage
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2006-01-12T17:37:00.000-08:00

So I get everything ready to roll..

wanted to play with other options before committing

and then have nothing to say.

What the hell is that ?

Especially for someone who doesn't know how to shut up most of the time.

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2006-01-07T14:55:00.000-08:00

Almost there...or is that here..heh
actually about 4 different spots once all is said and done. ( is that the urge for vanity salvation or what )

I always have to make things more complicated than they have to be.

But dammit...that little control freak that likes to sit on my shoulder won't quit chattering in my ear.

Always get it right out of the gate. Never miss a beat. Nothing incomplete.

Regards
Savage
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2006-01-04T16:29:00.000-08:00

Just a test, nothing more that a test

tappa-tap-tap on the microphone

I'll be back once I get my base blog set up and get syndication feeds working to here and the other spots I want to be seen. So that I don't have to post-repost-post-a-post over and over again.

Syndicated will mainly be from my domain/base blog TO blogger and tribe for now

that dying mule "back there" can have the carrot scraps when I feel like it.

I'm just waiting on an email with instructions.

Until then keep your eyes to the shadows..I wouldn't want you turning your back on me now.

Who you talking to?.. you man...what?.. I'm not even here...fuck to, I'm looking right at you
oh..well hell.. yadda-da-da-dadda

Regards
Savage
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2006-01-03T16:47:00.000-08:00

Oh,....let us see here. hummm.. Template
oh.. they let us play with the code.. neat

good good.. I'll cheat and ..yup.. find a prebuilt template that I like until

I have the time to make one myself.. and..

aha.. there we go..got one.. I can deal with the way this looks

switch the template code... hit update...

love it !!

This will certainly do for now.. errrr... damn.. profile huh...I'll get to that later

Anybody interested in changing there template to something other than the choices here?
http://blogger-templates.blogspot.com/

oh dear.. the hyperlink function dosn't like my Opera Browser
I hope this place does autolink

The spots secured in any case

till then